My Whole world changed since I met u,,

My Birthday..

15 minutes ago, my 20 th birthday has just finished. yahh, today, even though I started to cry because there was no call even singing happy birthday for me as is usually given by papa, mama, and my brother in kupang. 
This morning, I waited anxiously. until nine o'clock in the morning, no one has called. I was crying from 6 am until 9 and then fell asleep because of tiredness. then mama send message via blackberry messenger. I think they forgot my birthday.
Initially I think positive if they're busy, because the younger brother of my grandfather died. but that's no reason to forget the birthday of her own child. I feel forgotten.
then, maybe because my mom saw my status on the blackberry msg is "maybe they are busy", my mother immediately called up. at that time I was crying. so, when Mom asked if I was sick, because my voice sounded hoarse, I said that I had the flu because of the rain yesterday when I came home from college. when she asked if daddy was called up, I say not yet. after that she hung up. 1 hour later Dad called me. I think it's because mom reminded him. I cried again, and Dad asked about the same thing, am I sick? yaa, I was sick, hurt because there is no happy birthday song today, as before. 
and the worst of today is my brother did not say happy birthday to me! I called him 2 times, and he is busy because it's semester exams this week. how dare. worst birthday ever...but today, there is also the fun part. playing in the rain with my friends. they pour flour on me when we were in the rain, and yahh .. I look like a seasoned chicken that is ready to make a kentucky fried chicken.
dina who started it. she's the first who threw the flour into my head. and my friends all the others away, so just me and dina are in the rain. not long after, I began chasing my friends and hug them when my bod's full with flour, so automatically they are also look the same with me.hahaha dirty. but it was fun.
not long after we started rubbing flour on each other. then play the water on the floor.douse each other. and looking for new targets. yuni. hahaha. she shouted and said, "people who has a birthday today is olivia, why I became a target?". of course, he experienced the same thing with me. dirty and wet. hahahaha.
We are noticed by people there. shameful indeed, but who cares? I don't know them. so why should I care? hahaha.
we took lots of photos. well, mostly taken by my friend who did not want to interfere in the war of flour in the rain. but of course they are also subject to being washed in flour.hahaha. very nice.

These are photos taken at the time.

It's too late,,,

that day, I hope the time to circle back to the time when he was still there, so I have enough time to say that I loved him. far in the bottom of my heart, I regret it. I just realized why when he's gone and not coming back again.
Him, someone who never loved me, never noticed me, which I always think is a problem, I love him. That man, my grandfather.
when I saw that face motionless, the body which has chilled, no heartbeat, I felt very guilty. lung disease had damaged his body. create a body that was once very strong to be a man who just to walk alone should help by others then just slept on the bed, can't move, even talk.
I have never come to him and say how much I loved him. when I was a child, I always hoped he turn to me, smile and said, "come here, come play with grandpa", but he never did. how unfair he was. even until the last day I met him too, I turned my face from him. I never knew, it was the last day I met him, and my last words to him was, "happy new year, kung", then I left him. see, how rebellious I was on him. what kind of grandchildren am I? I really never know that was the last time I saw him..
he's probably a strange man, likes to scold other people, and always on his own wishes, but he is my grandfather. without him, there would be no me. if it's not him, my father wasn't going to be people who like it now. and I would never appreciate what it is today.
I just continued to regret, in all my days, if I never have time to say to him, "kung tau ga, Via sayang banget sama kung-kung" and embrace him wholeheartedly. 
I really regret it.

I have a little part of each of my friends...

yahh .... any given moment, I feel like my friends.

though sometimes I was annoyed with their attitude, I found myself also have one of their attitude. like today, I feel like Angel, who still can smile when her heart wounded, was still able to laugh even though her heart hurt.

sometimes I feel like the rest. that is why now, I do not want to insult them or judge them, because I know, there are things in me the same with them. are not judgmental.hahahaa.

I remember one part of the movie series Sex and the City, there are parts where Samantha felt there is little Charlotte within her and so did charlotte, she felt there was little samantha in her. That's true friend. hahahhaa. although sometimes there are parts where we feel annoyed at our friends, but they will be with us in life, not the people we do not know. they are friends.

di foto ini kurang Adeline, Claudia, Trish dan Shan2...

I hope we have pictures where we're all in it.

love u all, guys....:*

pengampunan....

pengen banget mesoi orang... untungnya udah janji buat ga meso2 lagi.. tapi beneran, susah bangett... Tuhan, bantu via lewati smua ini.. via sudah hampir sampai di batas kesabaran dan batas "menghormati" org lain..

aku sabar, selalu sabar.. itulah kenapa aku MENANG ats kemarahanku padamu, MENANG atas kata egois, dan MENANG atas kamu. kamu benar2 KALAH TELAK!! aku berdoa pada Tuhan, semoga perbuatan2mu padaku di ampuni, karena aku MENGAMPUNI kamu dengan sepenuh hati.. sungguh...

dan terima kasih, kamu sudah susah2 meluangkan waktu buat baca blog-ku setiap hari hanya untuk tau, apa yang aku tulis.

satu hal lagi, terima kasih karena lewat kamu, Tuhan melatih aku untuk lebih sabar lagi. 

aku tau kamu marah karena aku meninggalkan kamu. kamu marah karena aku terkesan mengkhianati kamu. tapi tidak, sungguh. aku hanya bosan dengan rutinitas setiap hari dan kekangan dari mu yang sangat sangat sangat membebani hidupku yang sudah sangat berat dengan berbagai tekanan ini. aku harap kamu mengerti. tidak apa-apa kalau kamu mau memaki ku seperti apapun, makilah sampai kamu puas, karena satu hal, setiap kata makian itu tidak akan mempengaruhi aku, ingat, aku bukan orang tak beragama yang tidak percaya kuasa Tuhan. setiap perkataan jahatmu tidak akan berlaku. apapun yang kamu lakukan, sesakit apapun hatiku karena kata-katamu, 

aku memaafkan kamu.

sungguh...

Taeyang - look Only at Me...

Uh...
It's been on my mind for a while
Got to get this of chest
Before... it's too late

(I can't let you go
You got to let him go
I can't let you go
You got to... listen)
Haruedo myeot beonssik neol bomyeo useo nan
Su baek beon malhaetjanha you're the love of my life
Geojitdoen sesang sok buranhan nae mamsok
Ojik na mitneun geon neo hana ppunirago
Gakkeum nae mam byeonhalkka bwa buranhaehal ttaemyeon
Useumyeo malhaetjanha geureol il eopdago
Kkeuteomneun banghwang sok teong bin nae gaseumsok
Naega gidael goseun neo hanappun ijiman
Gakkeumssik heundeullineun nae jasini miwo
Oneuldo nan isesange hwipsseullyeo salmyeosi neol jiwo

Naega baram pyeodo neoneun jeoldae pijima baby
Naneun neoreul ijeodo neon nareul itjima lady
Gakkeum naega yeollagi eopgo sureul masyeodo
Hoksi naega dareun eotteon yeojawa
Jamsi nuneul matchwodo neon naman barabwa

Oneulbamdo jisaemyeo nal gidaryeotdago
Nunmullo naege malhae byeonhan geot gatdago
Neol hyanghan nae mamdo cheoeumgwa gatdago
Sueobsi dallaemyeo jinaeon manheun bamdeul
Niga eobsineun nan neomu himdeul geot gatjiman
Ttaeron neoro inhae sumi makhyeo nan
Kkeuteomneun datum sok ginagin hansum sok
Niga gidael goseun na hanappun ijiman

Niga gwichanhajineun nae jasini miwo
Oneuldo nan useumyeo nado mollae jasineul irheo

Naega baram pyeodo neoneun jeoldae pijima baby
Naneun neoreul ijeodo neon nareul itjima lady
Gakkeum naega yeollagi eopgo sureul masyeodo
Hoksi naega dareun eotteon yeojawa
Jamsi nuneul matchwodo neon naman barabwa

Naega igijeogiran geol nan neomu jal ara
Nan maeil muuimihan sigan soge
Ireoke deoreophyeojijiman baby
Neomaneun eonjena sunsuhage namgil barae
Ige nae jinsimingeol neol hyanghan mideumingeol
Jugeodo nal tteonajima

Naega baram pyeodo neoneun jeoldae pijima baby
Naneun neoreul ijeodo neon nareul itjima lady
Gakkeum naega yeollagi eopgo sureul masyeodo
Hoksi naega dareun eotteon yeojawa
Jamsi nuneul matchwodo neon naman barabwa

meanings:

UH...
IT'S BEEN ON MY MIND FOR A WHILE
GOT TO LET THIS OFF MY CHEST
BEFORE...IT'S TOO LATE

(I CAN'T LET YOU GO
YOU GOT TO LET HIM GO
I CAN'T LET YOU GO
YOU GOT TO...LISTEN)

I’ve been telling you everyday
I smile when I see you.
I’ve told you so many times
You’re the love of my life.
In this world full of lies, in my nervous heart
the one thing I believe in is you.
When you get nervous thinking that my feelings may change
Remember I laughed when I told you that would never happen.
A direction with no end,
my completely empty heart
The only place I can lean on is you.
And I hate that my heart sometimes wavers
Even today I get carried away by the world
and you get erased

Even if I cheat
Don’t you ever cheat, Baby
Even if I forget you
Don’t you ever forget me, Lady
If once in a while I don’t contact you
and I go out to drink
Even if I ever meet another girl’s gaze
Look only at me.

When you tell me with tears in your eyes
that you spent all night waiting up for me
you say “I think you changed.”
So many nights you ask me to tell you
that my feeling are the same as when I first met you.
Although it seems that I am miserable without you
Honestly sometimes you suffocate me
The never ending arguments
The long sighs.
Although the only place for you to lean is on me
I hate that sometimes I get sick of you
Even today I smile
and lose myself without my knowledge

Even if I cheat
Don’t you ever cheat, Baby
Even if I forget you
Don’t you ever forget me, Lady
If once in a while I don’t contact you
and I go out to drink
Even if I ever meet another girl’s gaze
Look only at me.

I know well that I’m self-centered
And I spend my days in meaningless activities
Becoming filthier, baby.
I want to leave your purity as it is,
this is my sincerity, my belief in you
Don’t leave me even in death

Even if I cheat
Don’t you ever cheat, Baby
Even if I forget you
Don’t you ever forget me, Lady
If once in a while I don’t contact you
and I go out to drink
Even if I ever meet another girl’s gaze
Look only at me.

Even if i die, i can't let you go

Regardless of the age, it all hurts the same
Regardless of how young you are, we all know and feel pain

Why did you lie that everything will be ok?
The broken heart doesn't get repaired easily
How will I live without you, so...

Even if I die, I can't let you go
How could I let you go if you're planning to leave
Then fix my heart so I can at least live on painlessly
If you can't, then since I wouldn't be able to live
I can't let you go even if I die

No matter how much you push me away, I will hold on to you till the end
So you won't be able to go anywhere

If you are really leaving, then lie
Let's meet tomorrow and meet with a smile
Then say that you were joking about breaking up if not then...

Even if I die, I can't let you go
How could I let you go if you're planning to leave
Then fix my heart so I can at least live on painlessly
If you can't, then since I wouldn't be able to live
I can't let you go even if I die

We spent so much time together
But how could I live alone now?
I can't do that, I can't
Even if I die, I can't let you go, I really can't let you go
If you're planning to leave, then fix my heart
so I can at least live on painlessly
If you can't, then since I wouldn't be able to live
I can't let you go even if I die

Life's a drama or A drama is the mirror of life?

kadang, kita menonton film drama di televisi, apa yang berada dalam pikiran kita? apakah drama ini benar2 terjadi pada kehidupan nyata? yah , kadang cerita drama yang kita nonton adalah cerita yang di ambil dari kehidapan nyata, namun sebagian besar merupakan karangan dari para penulis yang dengan imajinasi mereka dapat membuat cerita yang begitu sadis atau setidaknya berisi penganiayaan terhadap orang lain atau kejahatan yang lumrah telah terjadi di masyarakat sekarang ini. wahh, susah juga yaa.. sebenarnya, menurut saya, film tu juga bisa menjadi contoh bagi penganiayaan yang sekarang banyak banget terjadi. jadi si pelaku tu merasa seperti artis aja bisa menganiaya orang, dan contohnya tu dia ambil dari televisi. wahh, orang indonesia apalagi. suka banget tuh nonton sinetron yang isinya kekerasan dalam rumah tangga, akhirnya jadi ikut2an sadis kyak si pelaku di dalam film. waduhh, jangan di tiru donk.. susah kalo di tiru. hahahahaa...
tentang life's a drama, yah, banyak orang yang menjalankan hidupnya seperti drama televisi. di atur sebagaimana rupa sehingga betul2 keliatan kayak drama. ada juga orang bilang, hidup itu drama karena kita bisa mengatur sendiri jalan hidup kita seperti apa, nah lo?? kalo menurut ku sih, drama tu cermin dari kehidupan manusia jaman sekarang, tapi belum tentu yah yang di sinetron tu benar, biasanya cuma lebay2annya si produser aja, biar yang nonton jadi pengen nonton trus.... hahahahahaaaa.........
jadi, bagaimanapun, drama ya cuma drama, buatan manusia, tapi HIDUP, itu buatan Tuhan, ga ada yang bisa buat, selain Tuhan. jalan hidup kita udah di siapkan sama Dia yang di atas, setiap jalan sudah Ia sediakan, hanya bagaimana kita memilih jalan yang paling tepat aja. Be wise. ya walaupun untuk menjadi bijaksana, seseorang harus melalui banyak sekali rintangan untuk mencapai kata Bijak tersebut. itulah, semakin banyak rintangan yang bisa di lewati dengan baik, bahkan luar biasa, semakin bijaksanalah orang itu. karena bijaksana di latih dari rintangan2 itu... tapi, jangan salah, saat kamu minta untuk menjadi bijaksana, Tuhan ga akan langsung memberi bijaksana itu dengan instan, tapi dengan caraNya sendiri. Ia punya caraNya sendiri untuk memberikan kebijaksanaan itu pada setiap kita. dan setiap kita ga sama. itulah kenapa Ia bilang setiap manusia itu unik dan luar biasa. baca baik2, Tuhan bilang kita LUAR BIASA, jadi jangan kecewakan Dia.
satu hal, teman.....Tuhan tu sayaaaanngg banget sama kita. jangan salahkan Dia atas setiap kesalahan yang terjadi dalam hidupMu, tapi bersyukurlah, karena kalau tidak ada kesalahan itu, kamu tidak akan belajar sesuatu. dan hidupmu hanya akan monoton, hidup senang terus itu tidak akan memberikan pelajaran baru buatmu. tapi kesal, sakit hati, marah, dll. itu mengajarkanmu untuk menjadi lebih baik lagi dan menghindari hal yang sama agar tidak terjadi untuk kedua kalinya lagi.
ok teman2?? udah dulu, kesel ngetiknya....
God Bless You.. Jesus Love you....<3

me and my bad habits...

when I woke up this morning, I looked around my room. of course, looks very messy with dirty T-shirts and jeans everywhere. plus the garbage that piled up in the trash in the corner. this is my bad habit, lazy to clean up the room. sometimes, when I my diligent, I cleaned everything, but, of course, it rarely happens. hahahaha.
It was just one of many of my bad habits. The other one is I don't want to sleep before 1 am and of course I can't wake up again at 7 am to go to college half an hour later. I always arrived at class 10 minutes after class started, and of course, my professor never complained, because almost all students like it.
sometimes I feel uncomfortable with my bad habits, but well, what could I do, it is ingrained.but I will change. someday when I already own, I will change the habit. of course. I promise.

Separating Twice

Separating Twice 

Now I can finally you go

Even though it was a long separation but now I have to try hard just to bring up your face

It's ok if I'm not sorry because you would've already forgotten me

I know I'm the only one that is like this..

Separating for the second time, the pain that I've only made alone

This time I will leave, just like how you left me first when we broke up

Even after we broke up, I couldn't forget you, but this is as far as my foolish self will go

I hope if we meet accidently, you will just pass by and ignore me

Ignoring me will be such a easy thing for you to do..

Please go far away, that I won't be able to find you

If I see you, I would forget that we broke up and I'll pretend that I don't know you as well

I don't know you either..

A Note to God

If I wrote a note to God, I would speak whats in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away, For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God, I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end For peace to mend this world

I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through, Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue, Need some help from youGrant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone, Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God, I would say what on my mind

I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world Until these times

If I wrote a note to God, I'd say please help us find our way

End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts

And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through, Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you, Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong, On this road we're on 

No, no no no, We can't do this on our own, So

Give us the strength to make it through, Help us find love cause love is over due

And it looks like we haven't got a clue, Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on, Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

Surabaya, the City of Heroes...

This morning I had to get up early in the morning at 6 to prepare for the event Heroic Trail, yeah, visiting historic sites in Surabaya. where the struggle of the hero to bring Indonesia's independence has never fallen, though they must sacrifice their lives. and of course, their efforts have never in vain. Indonesia has been independent now. in his age who has 65 years, Indonesia has been moving forward. all of it thanks to the heroes who really love their nation.

These days we visited many places, including the monument of heroes, the home of a former fighter, HOS Cokroaminoto, and the red bridge. where there are moments of bloody, territorial disputes of allies, and war. well, there is a mystical place, where we were banned out dirty words and being nice.well, but from all that, the place-tenpat is very interesting to visit.

FYI, the city of Surabaya has been 717 years old on 31 May 2010. surabaya city is of course a very old city, with many historic buildings that are hundreds of years. and every year, majoring in tourism Petra held visiting historic places in Surabaya, which are regulated by the students of tourism itsel

Sebulan menjaga lab

wow, hari ini tepat sebulan aku magang di lab pariwisata, atau istilahnya jaga lab pariz. yeah, capek, kehilangan banyak waktu santai dan tentu saja waktu istirahat ku yang memang sangat berharga dan panjang luar binasa seperti hibernasi, hahahahaa..

tapi dari semua itu, kegiatan ku ini sangat menyenangkan. aku selau senang melakukan hal-hal baru, dan aku belajar banyak dari menjaga lab. aku belajar membooking tiket untuk orang lain. belajar melayani orang, baik secara langsung maupun lewat telepon, dan hampir semua orng yang membooking berasal dari kawasan petra, jadi ga susah kalo ngantar tiketnya atau ambil uang tiket. 

Yah, biarpun agak membosankan ya di lab itu, apalagi kalau ga ada sinyal di lab yaa, bb serasa mati kutu. tapi di lab selalu tersedia internet gratis dan game2 yang meskipun sebagian besar hanya trial (-,-"), masih bisa di toleril. dan aku cukup menikmatinya.

dari semua itu, tentu saja, MEMAKAI SERAGAM!! well, dulu aku sangat benci hari jumat secara tidak langsung, karena aku harus memakai seragam setiap hari jumat, yah, peraturan lama yang mengharuskan setiap mahasiswa pariwisata harus memakai seragam setiap hari jumat, rapi, dengan sepatu fantovel setinggi max 15cm. upss, salah, 5cm.

nah, satu hal lagi yang merupakan hiburan tersendiri, di lab ada yang menemani, menurut kalian sapa? hayoo.... jangan pikir yang aneh2 deh. di sana ada ko harris. salah satu TL (tour leader), asdos, atau semacam itulah, (hehee..). orangnya lucu, ceplas-ceplos, cerewet gitu. jadi enak banget di ajak ngobrol. aku sampe di kasi nama baru , olive ( yang di baca olaive dengan aksen inggris lebaynya, hahahahaaa.. sorry lohh ko..). memang namaku olivia, dan teman2 ku memanggilku dengan nama oliv, tapi bukan olive, apalagi olive'nya popeye. secara dari bentuk badan aja udah beda banget, ngekz... tapi, dari semua itu, aku mendapatkan satu hal, teman baru. dan dapat teman baru itu menyenangkan.

should we go to church while our own body is the temple of God??

I went to church yesterday afternoon, yeah, it was my first day to the church after about 6 months not to go there. Do not laugh at me, because I know most of the youth of today like that. that is why, when I was in church, I look around me and found that most of the congregation are adults and children. There's only a small part youth who came with her boyfriend. (I'm sure it's just to convince parents of the man's girlfriend if he was a religious person).
well, because I have not been to church, when I was there and followed the eucharist ceremony, I found myself not memorize some of the dialogue in the ceremony. wow, I'm very lazy ...when I realized that I was very far from God, how sad I am. I feel myself a fool. and well, I promised the Lord to come to church every week. it was time I became a dutiful daughter to God, right?
of all that, there are things that I confused. Bible says that the human body is the temple of God (Corinthians 3:16), but we must still go to church to pray. should we go to church while our own body is the temple of God???
but when I think back, I conclude that, for the Catholics, we need to go to church to receive the sacrament of the Eucharist every week, even every day. receive unleavened bread that has been blessed as a symbol of Christ's body.
well, at least I've got a reassuring answer. but what about the others? I do not know. indeed of religion in society is very sensitive, can lead to civil war in a country (wow!!).so, let us accept each other as a religious community. so we can live happily ever after, side by side.

Is It wrong if I have a past???

every one have the answer.... but, is it wrong when I got past that you are not in it?
and if I am wrong if I still remember my past? note one thing, remember, not recalled. for me, this is very unfair. I have a past, yes, everyone has. but it is not something we have to argue, just because in the past, I loved him. no, I did not love him, I just like him. because he was kind to me. what is wrong with that? This is not something that should make the reason why you mad at me. unfair. and talking about unfair, of all things in this world is never fair. That's why everyone tries to find what it is called "fair".
and here I am, sitting in front of my laptop with a million questions in my head.there are people who for the sake of getting a photo that can make him famous, willing to see a child die in front of him. fair? Of course not.Sometimes, I feel so immature. I think if an adult, why can't I answer these questions when nearly all adults can answer it? yeah, I would call myself a half an adult? hahaa ..maybe it's much better.
today, with excessive stress, I think about my lecture that seemed to be much delayed. with many demands from family, oh no, I can not relax anymore. it seems that time has passed and I still want to be in it when I realized that I've got to get out.
Wew, maybe I was wrong about the concept of loving people in the past and in the present. I probably love him first, okay, I admit, I loved him. previously. but now, no. he was part of my past, but not my present. I did once try to carry him in my present. okay, I was wrong about this, but I learned. I couldn't bring him. he wasn't part of my life anymore. once again, I learned. I understand that you're part of my life, not him. but it seems you can't understand it. and as it happens, it's too late. it was too late. and I am sorry for all that. 
maybe you are right in terms of "I lie to you". but you never true in the case of angry and yelling at me. yes, we are both wrong. and we will not be together anymore. Now, in the future or at any time. never will.
wow, this is a sad end. hahahaa..almost all of my relationships with men through the same thing. pathetic. maybe I should stop looking and sat silent. do anything that has nothing to do with relationships with men. Wew, almost all there. hahahaha. poor me.yeah, I better go travel the world alone. for God sake, I look like a lonely old woman. hahahaaa... of all that, I just want to pass up what I love. all things except get married and have kids. I love children, of course, but it seems as though it wasn't for me.

Is This All I want??

yes, I know, it is a sentence that I'll never know how to prove...
I did anything to make all happy, but it's like never enough for them... ok, in every single problem that happened,  it's always me. the bad one.... sure, it break my heart into a little pieces.. good for u all, and bad for me.
and this is me, with all what I want to know, "is that all I want??"
speak about what I want, I always want a good relationship with others, and I want them to believe me. just it, BELIEVE!!! and they never even care about it... they want me to share anything with them, but what about them?? nothing!! my friend told me that it's just because I'm on my periode, it makes me more sensitive than usual, is it true? no, my PMS was over...  something that happened was I HATE ALL OF THAT!! why should I  care about people that never even care about me??!!! some kind of egoist people out there!
of course, I never had any good relationship... yeah, if I got one, I'll be in such a good condition now, maybe married?? oh God, forget it, I'm just 19 and want to be a happy married women with child? hell ya, no...
being a married women just like being trapped with the same guy in my whole life.

sahabat2 ku tersayang.. memory yang tak pernah hilang...

ngomong2 tentang sahabat, aku punya beberapa sahabat sejak SD, yah, setelah pindah sekolah 3 kali, aku berhasil mendapatkan sahabat, sahabat pertama ku adalah Wati, dia baik.. innocent dan super pintar, hehee.... rankingnya tidak pernah di bawah 10... yang kedua adalah Randy, dia teman duduk pertama ku di kelas 5, kesan pertama ku terhadap dia adalah, dia orang yang kasar, pencicilan, dan tidak ramah. tapi, setelah aku mengenal dia, ternyata dia itu sangat baik, dan juga setia kawan. dan yang satunya lagi adalah Stefen, kalau di ingat, dia dulu pendek, tingginya hanya sebatas bahuku. tapi kalau melihat dia yg sekarang, keadaan itu berbalik hingga aku hanya setinggi bahunya, hhahaahaaa.... anak laki2 selalu memiliki pertumbuhan yang lebih cepat dari pada wanita, ckckckk...

mereka bertiga ini adalah sahabatku sejak SD sampai sekarang, ah, sudah sekitar 10 tahun ini mereka menjadi sahabatku...

ada lagi sahabatku waktu SMP, Angel (yang juga adalah tetangga ku), Adelia, Ayu dan Nora (tentu saja teman2 SD ku jg, karena kami berada dalam sekolah yang sama).. apa yang bisa aku katakan tentang mereka? mereka adalah teman2 dalam menghadapi suka dan duka. masing2 mereka membawa memory yang berbeda untukku. dari yang paling baik, sampai yang paling hancur sekalipun.. masa SMP ku adalah masa yang paling gila.. menyelinap dari sekolah, menipu guru, di hukum bersama, makan siang bersama setelah pelajaran olahraga, saling curhat, menangis dan ketawa bersama, bergosip, bertengkar, sampai ada yg hampir muntah karena d tunjukin adegan BF, ke pantai bareng, les bareng, kematian pacar teman tersayang, relationship life, orang tua di panggil karena ketahuan membawa hape ke sekolah, semuanya, masih ingat kah mereka??? aku harap...

teman2 SMA, sebenarnya aku punya banyak teman di SMA, hampir semua dari mereka aku kenal, terutama yang satu jurusan. masa ini, aku harus tinggal di asrama dan jauh dari orang tua. menjadi mandiri. itu kata papa. sungguh, melepaskan kenyamanan rumah itu sangat menyedihkan. sampai sekarang pun aku masih rindu rumah. di SMA, aku punya banyak teman dekat, mimi, ivon, yeyen, nora (sahabat sMP ku, dia masuk ke sekolah yang sama denganku karena mama kami berteman baik), rina, anny, etc. mereka sudah seperti saudaraku sendiri. setiap hari, makan, sekolah, belajar, bergosip, tidur, senam malam, belajar, mengerjai anak baru bersama... dan aku kangen pada hari2 dimana aku bangun dengan semangat untuk mandi, berseragam dan kemudian tidur lagi sampai waktunya makan pagi.. kami membagi segalanya, tak terkecuali privasi.

tidak hanya itu, aku jg pny teman d sekolah. Elisa dan Chacha. mereka teman kelas ku di kelas 3. kami sering mengerjakan tugas kelompok bersama2... dan dengan teman2 sekelas, banyak sekali kenangan, masa2 MOS, apalagi di kelas 3, saat semua akrab satu sama lain. membuat cheerleader team, foto yearbook, kehilangan uang kelas, mengabaikan guru yang sedang mengajar, tidur di kelas, menyembunyikan hape saat ada razia, membuat jaket kelas, di hukum bernyanyi oleh bu Rootje, di jewer pak Anton, di hukum menari oleh pak Hendra, camping bersama, hampir semua dari kami pernah merasakan itu, dan aku kangen masa2 kami tertawa bersama di dalam kelas, mengerjai teman atau bahkan guru baru, mengingat kami berada pada tingkat akhir, menyatakan otoritas kami terhadap junior serta guru baru di sekolah.. hal itu kadang merupakan hal yang paling mengasyikkan....

dan sekarang, masa kuliah ku. banyak dari teman2 SMA ku, serta sahabat SD ku yang masuk dalam perguruan tinggi yang sama denganku, namun tidak dalam jurusan yang sama. aku mengambil jurusan Pariwisata. di jurusan ini, aku punya teman2, tidak, sahabat2 baik yang bergabung dalam sebuah grup yang di beri nama Double4, Dina, Shelvi, Debby, Trish, Claudia, Adeline, San2. mereka sahabatku. berbagi suka duka denganku. kami berbagi cerita, tawa, tangis, emosi, dan semuanya. mereka sudah menjadi bagian dari hidupku sekarang. kenangan kami, masak bersama, dugem bersama, makan bareng, merayakan ulang tahun, meliburkan diri dari kelas, segalanya.... aku sayang mereka.

sungguh menyenangkan bisa punya sahabat seperti mereka semua... mereka membuat hidupku lebih berwarna.. lebih menyenangkan, dan lebih berarti.. something I want to say that I love u all, guys...

This is me

haii, Bloggers...hari ini adalah hari pertama aku membuat blog, ehm.. sebenarnya ini bukan yang pertama kali, tapi berhubung aku sudah lama sekali ga blogging, aku melupakan alamat email dan password saya... hahahhaaa...
karena waktu itu sering membuka internet melalui warnet, jadi aku ga bisa menyimpan alamat email dan password di komputer itu. tapi berhubung sekarang aku sudah punya laptop sendiri (pameeeerr), hal tersebut menjadi hal yang mudah sekarang.
ahh, aku mau memperkenalkan diri, namaku olivia, lebih sering di panggil oliv, livia, atau via. banyak yah? karena aku sering pindah sekolah sejak SD, pindah dari suatu kultur ke kultur lain yang berbeda pula, cara mereka memanggil aku pun berbeda2... hahahaa... tentu saja hal itu sedikit memusingkan, namun sangat menyenangkan. aku punya banyak sekali teman, namun hanya sedikit yang dapat di jadikan sahabat.
aku berasal dari kupang-NTT, tapi aku lahir di sebuah kota kecil bernama Betun, 19 tahun 10 bulan dan 8 hari yang lalu.. ada yang tau NTT itu dimana? tentu saja, jangan sampai tidak tau,... kota kecil yang damai, penuh dengan rasa kekeluargaan dan kenyamanan. aku memang bukan berasal dari keluarga yang kaya, tapi papa ku selalu bisa menyekolahkan aku, hingga kini aku kuliah di UK. Petra. aku mencintai mereka. orang tua ku tentu saja. mereka cahaya hidupku. aku hidup demi membahagiakan mereka. mereka yang terbaik.:)
aku sekarang berada di Surabaya, yah, hitung2, ini adalah kotavku yang ke 5, kalau saja tempat lahir ku di sebut kota..:) yang pertama adalah betun, kota kelahiran sekaligus kota tmpt aku menjalani masa kelas 3-4 SD ku..
lalu Baucau yang sekarang adakah bagian dari negara Timor Leste (setidaknya aku bisa di anggap pernah tinggal di luar negeri.. hahaa...) yang merupakan kota tempat aku bertumbuh sejak balita sampai kelas 2 SD. kami tinggal di sana sampai pada pertengahan tahun 1997, dan pindah saat perang dan demonstrasi kemerdekaan sedang berlangsung.
kota ketiga ku adalah Kupang. keluargaku sekarang menetap di sana, dan selalu menjadi tempat aku pulang, Kupang selalu adalah rumah pertama ku, tempat aku menyelesaikan masa SD dan SMP ku yang penuh dengan warna.
kota keempat ku adalah Malang. aku menamatkan SMA ku di sana. kota yang dingin namun penuh dengan kenangan bersama teman2. dan sekarang, kota ku adalah Surabaya, sampai sekarang aku memiliki banyak sekali kenangan di Surabaya. tentu saja, bersama dengan teman2 yang sangat aku sayangi....
dan sebentar lagi, apabila Tuhan menijinkan, Penang, Malaysia, akan menjadi kota keenamku. tempatku magang. kota dimana aku mulai belajar bekerja untuk diriku sendiri.....

walaupun aku sering berpindah2 tempat tinggal, aku tidak pernah mengeluh, karena aku tau, ada seseatu yang baik sedang menungguku di sana....

ahh, matahari sudah hampir terbit, sudah waktunya aku tidur. tidak terasa, hampir 3 jam aku menulis blog ini.. hahahahaaa.... then, good night, no, good morning all... have a nice day.. i have to take a rest after doing a lot of fun thing today.....
~GBU~